someone fucking kill me now

I can't take my family at all. their so fucking annoying! I need a cigarette or get high because I'm gonna lose it. I'm seriously so annoyed with all of them. I'm trying so fucking hard not to cut right now. plus on top of all this my boyfriends trying to make me get rid of my blog, I don't know what to do. I mean I really love him but I really don't wanna get rid want to get rid of this. He's been so caring and understanding of me and all my fucking problems, I really hope he doesn't give up on me because he's the love of my life and I could marry him this second, I hope he feels the same way. I don't know if I should get rid of the blog because it really upsets him, I just wish he would stop looking at it! he'll probably read this too...ugh